highschool

well highschool, its a been a slice. i will miss you.. as painful as it is for me to say it, you've had some pretty good times come out of you... i've got to say.. gr. 10 and 11 were the good years. Grade nine.. well grade nine... you guys know how that is.. and gr. 12... everyone is bitchez. no one is accepting anymore whether it being to the new girl or the exchange student or what not, and if you want to be accepted you have to change yourself.. i've seen that a lot lately. I've went through friends in highschool... some of them being my very bestest that i miss dearly but everything happens for a reason right? I cant complain though, because since i lost some of my friends i've gained or become closer with so many others, that i hope i stay in touch with, cause they are the greatest.. but... now what? what happens now that highschools over? Cant wait to see what will happen! here i come university!!

bestfriend?

what does it mean to be or have a bestfriend?
people say "omg your my bestfriend.." or expressions like that all the time. but what does it mean to actually have one?
i feel lost. i dont have this bestfriend, i did, i dont anymore
i know have a empty hole it feels like.
i just want a bestfriend again.

poop

i wish i could make direct blogs or status about someone without it being morally wrong. like
"today __ was being a huge bitch"
if i wrote that, people would act like i just shot their first born son/daughter.
ugh

people are bitchez

i think im like my coworker leah.. im beginning to hate human civilization.. not like i wanna kill everyone,.. no no not in that sense but more in the sense that.. people just dont know how to think and it drives me insane... like people who you think are your friends.
yah
i realized today that most people only have really two main good friends who are always there.. the rest are just filler, yes.. filler like that stuff they put in easter baskets so it looks like you have more in there.. but ya really dont..

on a better note.
i leave in 10 days hell ya!! i couldnt be any more excited. i wish i was going with other friends too tho, oh well! ill hopefully still have a good time.

bored,,,,,,dont wanna CLEAN

my dad just made me clean my room and the only reason by i did it..
was cause he threatened me with the laptop.. REALLY. you cant say no to that...
ANYWAYS i had to spend most of my day cleaning my room which was a TERRIBLE MESS!!!! im serious SOO MESSY! you couldnt even walk around.. and now im sitting here not knowing what to do with my life cause i dont feel like cleaning anymore.
i think im gunna have some ice cream cake.. mmm :)

DAMN i should have taken before and after photos..... :(

SLEEP

WELL SO..
i had a really good sleep, kinda.
i mean
i fell asleep like a baby but woke up in the middle of the night just because my music was left on.. it wasn't too bad. i fell asleep like a baby right after.
SOMEHOW when i was waking up i sensed it in my dream.. i could feel myself falling out of sleep, this has never happened before. CRAZY

i had the weirdest freaking dream too. I WAS PREGNANT. oh my god. i never ever wanna be pregnant.. it was so scary. i was 4 weeks or something and i had this little bump already and i couldn't even decide if i wanted the baby or not. it actually scared the crap out of me! never having kids anytime soon that's forsure.

birthdays

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! you are the big 4-0 today!!! have a good one, thank you for everything you've done for me i appreciate it all a lot!! i hope you enjoy your big day!! :) LOVE YOU!